Valentine's Day In Motherhood

Valentine's day used to be one of those holidays girls wrapped all their hopes and dreams into. I for one much prefer Galentine's Day lately. But here's why today rocked. There were no super surprises. No flowers, diamonds or over the top luxuries. But today was my daughter's Kindergarten Grandparent's/Valentine's Day show. And it was amazing.

My husband and I did the normal card exchange but because of the afternoon show, and it being my dad's last day in town, we snuck a lunch with my dad in tow, before the big production. Then off to the show we went!

My daughter had been threatening to not sing. Boy did she mean business! She paid close attention. She focused on her teachers and the commands. She knew every hand gesture and pantomime. She did not sing. Stone-faced she stood there. And occasionally smiled and waved at us. She had this adorable and ridiculous embarrassed grin. I loved it.

In other news for today I was able to leave work early and now have my dad doing finishing touches in my daughter's room for her many requests and I'm relaxing in the quiet before the rest of the day unfolds. I'm still full from lunch.

Today I got to be a real, live Valentine's day mom. I got Luna the card. Hubby got her the chocolates. I was at the school event with the other grandparents and parents, on time and ready to watch it. I smiled and waved and sang all the words. I blew kisses and laughed and loved watching her in action. I didn't even cry!

Valentine's Day used to be a huge thing for hubby and I, but since he's been a chef, he always works tonight. They are fully booked with reservations the next 3 nights. I for one am happy going to bed early with my little love happy in a chocolate coma in the next room and ready to send my dad back to Oregon with a great trip in the books.

But as a mom, I always feel like I'm lacking. Maybe all moms feel that in one way or another but I always feel bad being that working mom. I don't take time off for every little thing so that when days like today come along I can be there and pay attention.

I saw all the adorable Facebook posts of love. I've seen all the Instagram posts of love as well. And it was funny because where I used to make sure to loathe all of it and feel so very inferior and less than, this year I'm generally happy for everyone who is making the most out of this holiday. I even saw a "Friendaversary" of today on Facebook with a guy and his girlfriend of about one year. YAY! How cute is that?

And I know that for some single people today blows. It can feel super triggery and overwhelming, but let me just say, us married people don't have it all together either. Essentially it's just another day. But, if you can find some love and some big red hearts out there for today, Valentine's day can be less "Bleh," which I know some of you have felt.

For me it wasn't romantic love at all, but motherhood and being a part of something seemingly mundane and boring that meant everything. Perhaps you can find something like that too. Happy Valentine's Day readers!!