After a grueling 48 hours of being on the phone arguing with the system and then cleaning my house on a Friday night -- yes I am a party animal -- I was amping myself up for a very busy weekend. As I've made extremely clear, I relish and love my down time. Any time for me to hide in my bed and eat popcorn, and I'm there.
Today we have 2 back-to-back birthday parties and a friend coming along. It was supposed to be horseback riding to birthday party 1 to birthday party 2 to Mom being done and in bed by 6PM, but instead horseback riding was cancelled.
This was a weird blessing in disguise because I now have a slow, easy-going morning, yet another thing I fantasize about but am rarely awarded. The girls are playing on a "Friendship mission" and I'm seeing my hubby for the first time in 2 weeks for more than 20 minutes in a row.
We often forget that the universe can give us what we need even when we don't fully understand that we're asking for it, let alone needing it. I had a conversation with a friend earlier this week about how much of life is "if I can only make it to this then I can be happy," or "I just need to get through this weekend and then I can be more focused." We are usually centered on what we don't have to achieve what we do want, instead of appreciating all that is in front of us.
I had a rough couple days, yes. I threw my inadvertent tantrum instead of just bottling it up inside like normal Americans, and now I can reboot and get away from it. It's so important to just take things as they come, but often difficult.
I was anxious about today. A partypalooza Saturday wasn't ideal. I have to leave my comfort zone and socialize with other moms, and two full parties in a row. Tomorrow I get to catch up with an old friend but also in a large social outlet. Sometimes these things drain me.
I had this conversation with my dad this week about how, we love gathering and being conversational and social with people but we need a retreat in our safe space until we get back to an even calm after all of that.
After my bad customer service experience, and as someone who works in customer service, I realized that being treated badly by bad customer service reps, made me a little less patient with my own customers, and one thing that I work hard on in my job is patience, and understanding. I wish that was a STAPLE in everyday communications but we often get so frustrated so quickly, it falls to the wayside.
With all the reflection and then cleaning and calm, and now a morning of play dates, family time and extra coffee I'm feeling better. I'm still adjusting to a lot, especially work stuff with my husband, but I'm also mindful that we have great things ahead to look forward to.
The Universe gave me this morning to make up the last few rough days and I feel grateful and ready to take on party-palooza. So happy Saturday!
I've renamed this blog multiple times and this one, well "This Time Around," it's dedicated to and named by my best friend since the third grade whom I lovingly call "La," for seeing me through these trying times. It's the "Roaring 2020's." We've seen fires, murder hornets, a pandemic and The Tiger King. I finalized my divorce, am navigating single motherhood, working from home, distance learning and all the things. This time around should be something else.
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