A Day Without My Daughter...Too Weird

It's late afternoon Saturday and my kiddo is at Girl Scout Day Camp. I dropped her off at 10 with two friends and just being here, in my house, alone for most of the day is so weird.

I keep thinking I've forgotten her somewhere. It's almost too quiet. As moms we claim often we need a break, which we do from time to time, but this is just beyond strange. I guess we're officially in that stage where she is just insanely independent. 

I have't left her to her own device much but I feel like a lot of it is by default. Our lives aren't arranged to have her... not with me so to speak. My life revolves around all things kiddo, and I only have the one. 

She had a tough transition, there were definite tears. It was one of those moments where I saw myself in her. I remember being so anxious on trips away from my parents that I had to pop constant Tums for stomach cramps and missed my bed to the point of sleeplessness. I got picked on a lot because I loved the idea of sleep overs and hated every part of a sleep over, and the fact you don't actually sleep. It was never as good as home.

I see so much of myself in my daughter, and today was the perfect example. I'm not going to elongate this post, because hey, I only have a few more hours before I get to see her, but I will say that, I was a little surprised she was so emotional and even more surprised at how weird it is not having her around. 

Weekends are my time with her, so I think the change in routine is tough, but there are other adventures to be had. She chose to attend camp rather than horseback riding and spend the day a town away at camp.

Although I've definitely made the most of my time, I cannot wait to hear about her day and be reunited. I'm even a little anxious about the whole thing, but I feel good that we did independent things today.

Ironically I had this great conversation about "needing" certain people or not needing them in your life and I blanket said, immediately, "I need my kid." She is my world, but as a mom of a fierce redhead, I'm glad her world is her own today and she's  out there, after the tears for the goodbye, kicking butt!

So Happy Saturday readers. I'm off to make the most of my last couple hours. Thank you all for a great week and tomorrow we will be back to the routine, full stop!